what the fuck vice am i going to have?
2005-11-17 - 10:39 p.m.

i wasted five dollars today when i bought a pack of cigarettes, smoked two, and then remembered i am taking birth control pills and i can't smoke cigarettes because it puts me *that* much closer to dying.


i have also lost my silverchair CD. now don't all get up in fucking arms and tell me what a terrible band they are. most bands are terrible but we still are where we get in a certain mood for a certain CD and get really pissed off when we can't find it. the time in question when this occured was the other night just after I had snorted some K, and the CD in question was "neon ballroom". i tore my room apart just as the drug was kicking in looking for it. i finally quit, realising that spending my entire high looking for a CD was a way to get super bummed out.

rah, right. i know, i'm such a drug lord. if it makes you feel any better, i still have exactly one fat line left from the 20 bag i bought, which rob said would last me a week and has indeed lasted me...

five months?

mmm. have just pirated silverchair songs and am listening to them. blah, blah, blah.

i'm sober. mruh. so if i can't smoke, and can't drink (too many calories) and can't smoke weed (terrible munchies lead to severe binge eating) and can't do K (no supplier) and can't use ecstasy (fries brain if used more frequently than every 2 months) and can't get coke (never tried, is rich man's drug as well) and can't shoot up heroin (severe fear of needles and scoff at addiction) and can't eat shrooms (too long of a high) and can't chew fingernails (all chewed anyway) then what in the fuck vice am i going to have?

any suggestions welcome.

the coolest song in the world right now is:emotion sickness - silverchair
if i were an emoticon i'd be:viceless

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